As I sit here typing this, I am on my second pumping of October 17th. I want you all to know that this isn't as easy for me as you think it is. I've heard loads of "wow you're so calm." "You are so strong." "I don't think I'd be able to do this." "Your faith is amazing." I HAVE TO TELL YOU: it's not me. IT'S GOD. Alone, I could not have survived the trip to the hospital. Alone, I could not have given birth to a beautiful little boy. Alone, I could not have willed him to live and be a fighter. Alone, I would not have been calm or so held together. Yes I've had my moments and yes I've snapped myself back to reality with the simple thought that God has this, because I certainly couldn't imagine orcastrating something this amazing in my own life. Let me be here to encourage you today that no matter what issue you are facing God is ready and willing to take care of the issue AND you through the issue. He says...
So it would appear that we had a toy box explosion overnight. Okay, I'm gonna be honest with you, I've just put off cleaning Sammy's toybox out. However, Christmas and birthday season is rapidly approaching in our house so something has to be done since somehow the toys are like rabbits and multiply faster then I realize. I am thankful to say that not only will I be cleaning this mess up tomorrow for the church yard sale that is takin place on Saturday, but we live REALLY close to a thrift store so whatever doesn't sell at the yard sale will not being coming home with me. Not at all. Does anyone have any tips or tricks for organizing?! I sure could use some help. Or maybe someone to do it for me.
Today was honestly one of my better days in the aftermath that is loss and grief. You may get tired of me repeating how I feel or about my loss, but something as big as that is a defining moment in one's life and it can't be put away as easily as one may think. Yes I have great days where I'm ultimately happy and I have not so great days where I'm unmotivated to do much of anything. On these days, I rest a lot. I stay home. I don't socialize with copious amounts of people, only those absolutely necessary or ones that I want to talk with. Like I said, today was one of the better days. Danny had duty yesterday so sammy and I got to snuggle in bed all night long and we both woke up well rested and refreshed this morning. Sammy went to school and I had a day date with my friend Amanda. We took off to hancock fabrics because naturally if I'm making a dress every month, I'm going to make holiday specifics ones sometimes. I've been yearning to make a Valenti...
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