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Photo 1 of 365. Today (and a lot of days) will probably be of or relating to Sammy. Tonight it rained and I reminded him several times not to splash in puddles and get his shoes wet. I told him the shoes he has are the only pair he fits right now and they needed to be dry for school tomorrow.
Needless to say, about five minutes after church is over, I see him splashing about in a puddle. This made me so mad at first. I told danny I wanted to send him to school tomorrow with wet shoes because he disobeyed. I have to say though that I am so glad God doesn't handle our disobedience the way I wanted to handle Sammy's. 

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