It comes down to this.

This is what 23 weeks of pregnancy and 23 days in the nicu looks like. 

We received Liam's remains and his clothes today. I am a wreck all over again just when I was feeling like I could cope. His blanket has a blood stain. His remains are about the size of a half dollar. 

I wouldn't wish this on anyone ever.

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